Monday, March 16, 2009

10 Months...... I MISS YOU MOM.

To say it's getting easier,
that would be a lie.
There's not a day that goes by
that I don't think of you and cry.

Life goes on and so it has,
but easier it does not make
the memory of your love
in my heart does ache.

I wish I had just one more chance
to tell you how much I love you.
To hear your voice, to feel your touch
to know your body is healed.

Tell Daddy I said hello...
Grandma and Grandpas too.
I miss them all, I love them all,
but most of all......

It's hard to believe that today has been 10 months since mom passed. It's difficult and I still can't really think or talk about her without breaking down. People say it will get easier. When?

I miss my extended family too. I feel like an Island all to myself. No one calls to check-in on me or even say hello. Devin is my lifeline right now as has been the theatre. I've gained new friends and even family. They've kept me busy and kept me alive.

I'll continue to fight this battle with myself and hopefully I'll feel better one of these days. I know you wouldn't understand this part of me mom, but I love you.

1 comment:

Carrie said...

Tomorrow is 11 months and it feels like yesterday. I love her too and miss her like crazy. I still cry even when someone just brings her name up in a conversation. She was and still is loved like no other. We all have things going on in our lives and don't talk or visit like we should and that's insane because nothing is more important than love of your family. I don't know when or if ever the pain of losing someone like Aunt Judy ever really goes away. I do know that my memories of her make me smile and I thank her for that. I love you Aunt Judy, you are my favorite angel and I thank God for you.

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